Sunday, December 15, 2013


Helena Lehman, Christmas 2012
To be honest about how dire my situation is, we're not bothering to decorate the house for Christmas or do anything special this year. There will be no gifts under a tree and no festive meals with my husband unemployed, my health in constant jeopardy, no health insurance, one 17-year old car on its last leg, only $4K to live on, and a property tax bill due in the spring that is $3K.

There are also no parties to go to since no one in our families care about our situation, or are willing to help us. The horrid truth is that most could care less about me due to my strong faith in Yahshua, and my radical Protestant ministry work that offends their Roman Catholic beliefs. I also am receiving little help from other ministries, which refuse to give me credit for my ministry work, even though some of them have un-admittedly utilized my work in their own ministries.

I did dig out my menorah and manger scene though, and I used a little of the money I received through Go Fund Me to buy some things I needed for my health and to buy my daughter a gift. I am doing an internal cleanse in the hopes I'll feel able to find work outside the home if needed soon. In the meantime, I need to go to the welfare office now that Steve is no longer collecting unemployment, and ask for an increase of food stamp funds. We only get $130 a month toward food right now.

I am hoping we are taken in the Rapture soon, and I do feel it is going to happen in the near future. But in the meantime, I am also hoping and praying that we have enough to pay for gas and electricity through the winter, and until the Rapture.

To that end, what we partly need is for my husband Steve to find a job that he likes, and that likes him. In addition, I am hoping that my upcoming fiction books will do well on the market. Until then, I have been turning the heat down to 65 at night and only 71 during the day. I wear light, fingered mittens when I type now to keep my hands warm due to poor circulation. We may be forced to turn the heat down even lower soon. Please pray that God would provide for our needs in a big way so that I can continue my ministry, and work on regaining my health.

I am planning to re-start my writing work on my fiction trilogy set in antediluvian times now and hope these books sell better than my non fiction work, and quickly. If they do, they could pay our bills for a little while. The first of the three books is barely written yet though, but I have worked out the personalities and roles of the cast of characters, and the conflicts that will fuel the story's plot.

This is a big step in the right direction towards completing the first story, which is centered on the days of Enoch and Methuselah. Please pray with me that I can move these frozen fingers faster and write a compelling story that people will want to buy, read and share!

Meanwhile, if you have the funds, please consider giving a gift through my "Go Fund Me" account at to help fund my ministry and provide for me and my husband through the winter. Here is the link to do so:

Helena's Go Fund Me Account Page:

Thank you all, God bless you, and Maranatha!

Your Sister in Yahshua,
Helena Lehman of POEM

PS: FYI, the photograph of me at the top of this article was taken last Christmas, when we had a bit more money because Steve had recently lost his job and was collecting unemployment. I don't look nearly as healthy or happy now. You would likely be shocked at the change in me, I'm embarrassed to say. I've been sinking into despair more often lately, but do my best to stay positive and joyful as we await the soon return of our Bridegroom and King Yahshua. Please keep us in your prayers.


  1. Hello >>>>>> makes me sick to see you in bad shape like this,
    especially with all those Wall Street bulls and their big money
    that only keep it for themselves.

    I hope that RAPTURE does come soon. but of course 11 APR is aways
    and it may be at the last minute.......hopefully sooner.

    take care

    Stephen >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

  2. Praying for you, Helena. We are in similar straits. This economy has hit many very hard. I'm praying that you will be blessed above and beyond what you can ever ask or think!


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