Wednesday, September 12, 2012

THE BLESSING AND THE PRICE
OF ARTISTIC DEVOTION TO GOD


By Helena Lehman of the
Pillar of Enoch Ministry (POEM)


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September 12th, 2012 - Much to my current dismay, I just discovered that an amateurishly written, incredibly stupid erotic book that plagiarized the first Twilight novel - but added tons of kinky and sadomasochistic sex to it - is a runaway best-seller, having sold 42 million copes so far, with movie rights expected to go for $5 million or more! The reason I am horrified that this bit of erotica named "Fifty Shades of Grey" is doing so well is partly because, at one time, I entertained the thought of writing erotica under a pseudonym like Ann Rice, but then decided to write historical romances as a way of making a living. That is, until Yahweh God won my heart, and the Holy Spirit moved me in a completely different direction with my talents for writing and detailed analysis.

The heartbreak here is that I am virtually penniless today, having only sold a few thousand copies of my four books since their publication between 2004 and 2009. But tragically, it isn’t for a lack of quality! Many of the educated people who have bought and read all four of my “Language of God” Series books have told me that they are superbly written, awesome books that seamlessly combine complex Bible studies, myth, history, archeology, folklore, astronomy, theology, and science together to create a unique 2500-page reference series. In fact, I have been told often that there is very little written material even remotely like them in the Messianic or Christian markets today that unswervingly presents a fully Biblical, Non-Calvinistic, Anti-New-Age, highly moral worldview.

But sadly, since no Christian or Messianic publishing house would touch my books when I presented them due to the controversial nature of the books, which use the true names of God and His Son within, and also utilize the Bible, the Book of Enoch, the Book of Jubilees, the Book of Jasher, Sacred Astronomy, and the Gospel in the Stars to piece together the true history of the world from a biblical perspective, I had to self publish them and try to market them on my own. Unfortunately, I soon found out that it is impossibly expensive and time-consuming to do this. As an example, in addition to working 10 to 14 hours a day writing and researching my books 6 days a week, I had to spend thousands of dollars and thousands of hours marketing them online, preparing and giving interviews, and paying to present articles at online outlets that incorporated my book ideas in relation to current events.

Since I had to do all of this on my own, with zero support from my family, and much antagonism and heartbreak in my personal life, I quickly became exhausted trying to do it all, and I fell ill. As a result, for the past three years, I have done increasingly less to market my work outside of Facebook and my ministry blog. Meanwhile, since some of my highly unique material has always been available free online since 2002, dozens of Christian and Messianic ministers with much more money and power than I have took many snippets of my ideas and created their own versions of my work. But, though many of them made a tidy profit by utilizing my work, few of them gave me an ounce of thanks or credit, and very few offered to interview me and promote my own work that inspired them, though I asked, and tried to reach them.

So, as it stands right now, I have inspired countless ministers that many of you probably admire and follow today. Not only that, I have helped to make them rich by freely sharing my ideas that they packaged and marketed more or less successfully, though I myself have received very little in the way of recognition or financial remuneration from them. And now, with my husband out of work again, I can’t even buy a new laptop to replace the old one that died on me two weeks ago, and have been forced to share a far older laptop with my husband until more money comes in from somewhere. Meanwhile, my non-fiction “Language of God” book series that has so deeply enriched nearly every area of biblical research has fallen into obscurity, and I must await my reward for all my hard work in Heaven - because I certainly haven’t received it here on Earth!

Surprisingly, despite all the plagiarism of my work that has gone on, I’m not bitter about it at all, just terribly (and naively) surprised and sad that so many supposedly Christian and Messianic ministers have utilized much of my work without telling others where their inspiration came from, or helping me to promote my own work. In short, I have learned the hard way that there is a very dark, seedy underbelly to the Bible Study and Bible Prophecy market, and some of the biggest names in the business don’t often honor the hidden, nameless geniuses out there that gave some of them their best ideas - for one reason or another.

Sadly, the biggest irony of it all is that, if I had spent as much time writing romance novels and erotica as I did writing these Biblical research books that have been hopelessly copied, plagiarized, and ignored, I’D NO DOUBT BE A MILLIONAIRE BY NOW! This is no joke, because sex sells well, just as this tragically trashy best-seller that is being talked about everywhere right now called “Fifty Shades of Grey” has proven! But the good news is that I’m not tempted to stop writing for God in order to bring in a profit writing smut! I love my Father God Yahweh and His Son Yahshua more than the world and all of its sex and money, and I hope that some of you will be inspired to follow me in that devotion to God, despite the many financial and material sacrifices it may entail in this wicked world.

But don’t just take my word for it. Buy and read all four of my books either from Amazon.com, or from my Pillar of Enoch Ministry web site at http://pillar-of-enoch.com and find out for yourself. And if, after reading my books, the Holy Spirit moves you, please send me a financial gift in any amount to further my work using my contact information at my POEM web site, because I could surely use it, and I will gratefully acknowledge it. In the meantime, may Yahweh God bless you, and Maranatha!

2 comments:

  1. Oh Helena ..I know that pain that I hear coming thru this post & I weep with you. I had made a beautiful I.D. welcome banner for our congregation. It was by the Ruach Ha Kodesh that inspired & his skills thru me that made everyone admire it but alas no one was really interested in knowing the behind scene of how it came about. A year or so later I noticed it wasnt being used anymore. I wondered why until several sabbaths later a dear brother was hauling it out of the back room. He was clearly upset so recognizing the banner, I went to inquire. He had tears in his eyes as he was trying to smooth it out. He told me he had found it all crumpled up stuff in a little closet. He was also livid that such a beautiful banner honoring our Lord Yeshua & our congregation was treated with such little care. He also said to me " I hope the one who made this banner could repair it" for there was damage to it. It was then I told him with tears in my eyes that I was the one who made it & I will try to repair it. Then both of our tears let loose. All I can say is " Father please forgive them. They know not what they do "

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  2. Shalom Karen.

    Thank you for sharing this with me. I feel your pain. How horrible that this happened. Being a seamstress myself, I know how hard this must have been for you. I have experienced several painful events like that in my own home congregation where I was baptized, and spent the most time when I was still a member of an organized church. Perhaps we will talk on the phone or via chat someday.

    You can easily find my contact e-mail address and telephone number on my POEM web site at http://pillar-of-enoch.com/contact.html

    You can also find me on Facebook and Twitter. God bless!

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